It
used to puzzle him that, after dark, some one would look in round the edge of the bedroom door, and withdraw
again too rapidly for him to see the face. When the nurse had gone away
with the candle this happened: “Good night, Master Tim,” she said
usually, shading the light with one hand to protect his eyes; “dream
of me and I’ll dream of you.” She went out slowly. The sharp-edged
shadow of the door ran across the ceiling like a train. There came a
whispered colloquy in the corridor outside, about himself, of course,
and—he was alone. He heard her steps going deeper and deeper into
the bosom of the old country house; they were audible for a moment on
the stone flooring of the hall; and sometimes the dull thump of the
baize door into the servants’ quarters just reached him, too—then
silence. But it was only when the last sound, as well as the last sign
of her had vanished, that the face emerged from its hiding-place and
flashed in upon him round the corner. As a rule, too, it came just as he
was saying, “Now I’ll go to sleep. I won’t think any longer. Good
night, Master Tim, and happy dreams.” He loved to say this to himself;
it brought a sense of companionship, as though there were two persons
speaking.
The room was on the top of the old house, a big, high-ceilinged
room, and his bed against the wall had an iron railing round it; he felt
very safe and protected in it. The curtains at the other end of the room
were drawn. He lay watching the firelight dancing on the heavy folds,
and their pattern, showing a spaniel chasing a long-tailed bird towards
a bushy tree, interested and amused him. It was repeated over and over
again. He counted the number of dogs, and the number of birds, and the
number of trees, but could never make them agree. There was a plan
somewhere in that pattern; if only he could discover it, the dogs and
birds and trees would “come out right.” Hundreds and hundreds of
times he had played this game, for the plan in the pattern made it
possible to take sides, and the bird and dog were against him. They
always won, however; Tim usually fell asleep just when the advantage was
on his own side. The curtains hung steadily enough most of the time,
but it seemed to him once or twice that they stirred—hiding a dog or
bird on purpose to prevent his winning. For instance, he had eleven
birds and eleven trees, and, fixing them in his mind by saying,
“that’s eleven birds and eleven trees, but only ten dogs,” his
eyes darted back to find the eleventh dog, when—the curtain moved and
threw all his calculations into confusion again. The eleventh dog was
hidden. He did not quite like the movement; it gave him questionable
feelings, rather, for the curtain did not move of itself. Yet, usually,
he was too intent upon counting the dogs to feel positive alarm.
Opposite to him was the fireplace, full of red and yellow coals;
and, lying with his head sideways on the pillow, he could see directly
in between the bars. When the coals settled with a soft and powdery
crash, he turned his eyes from the curtains to the grate, trying to discover
exactly which bits had fallen. So long as the glow was there the sound
seemed pleasant enough, but sometimes he awoke later in the night, the
room huge with darkness, the fire almost out—and the sound was not so
pleasant then. It startled him. The coals did not fall of themselves. It
seemed that some one poked them cautiously. The shadows were very thick
before the bars. As with the curtains, moreover, the morning aspect of
the extinguished fire, the ice-cold cinders that made a clinking sound
like tin, caused no emotion whatever in his soul.
And it was usually while he lay waiting for sleep, tired both of
the curtain and the coal games, on the point, indeed, of saying,
“I’ll go to sleep now,” that the puzzling thing took place. He
would be staring drowsily at the dying fire, perhaps counting the
stockings and flannel garments that hung along the high fender-rail
when, suddenly, a person looked in with lightning swiftness through the
door and vanished again before he could possibly turn his head to see.
The appearance and disappearance were accomplished with amazing
rapidity always.
It was a head and shoulders that looked in, and the movement
combined the speed, the lightness and the silence of a shadow. Only it
was not a shadow. A hand held the edge of the door. The face shot round,
saw him, and withdrew like lightning. It was utterly beyond him to
imagine anything more quick and clever. It darted. He heard no sound. It
went. But—it had seen him, looked him all over, examined him, noted
what he was doing with that lightning glance. It wanted to know if he
were awake still, or asleep. And though it went off, it still watched
him from a distance; it waited somewhere; it knew all about him. Where
it waited no one could ever guess. It came probably, he felt, from
beyond the house, possibly from the roof, but most likely from the
garden or the sky. Yet, though strange, it was not terrible. It was a
kindly and protective figure, he felt. And when it happened he never
called for help, because the occurrence simply took his voice away.
“It comes from the Nightmare Passage,” he decided; “but
it’s not a nightmare.” It
puzzled him.
Sometimes, moreover, it came more than once in a single night. He
was pretty sure—not quite positive— that it occupied his room as soon as he was
properly asleep. It took possession, sitting perhaps before the dying
fire, standing upright behind the heavy curtains, or even lying down in
the empty bed his brother used when he was home from school. Perhaps it
played the curtain game, perhaps it poked the coals; it knew, at any
rate, where the eleventh dog had lain concealed. It certainly came in
and out; certainly, too, it did not wish to be seen. For, more than
once, on waking suddenly in the midnight blackness, Tim knew it was
standing close beside his bed and bending over him. He felt, rather
than heard, its presence. It glided quietly away. It moved with
marvellous softness, yet he was positive it moved. He felt the
difference, so to speak. It had been near him, now it was gone. It came
back, too— just as he was falling into sleep again. Its midnight
coming and going, however, stood out sharply different from its first
shy, tentative approach. For in the firelight it came alone; whereas
in the black and silent hours, it had with it—others.
And it was then he made up his mind that its swift and quiet
movements were due to the fact that it had wings. It flew. And the
others that came with it in the darkness were “its little ones.” He
also made up his mind that all were friendly, comforting, protective,
and that while positively not a
Nightmare, it yet came somehow along the Nightmare Passage before it
reached him. “You see, it’s like this,” he explained to the nurse:
“The big one comes to visit me alone, but it only brings its little
ones when I’m quite asleep.”
“Then the quicker you get to sleep the better, isn’t it,
Master Tim?”
He replied: “Rather! I always do. Only I wonder where they come
from!” He spoke, however, as
though he had an inkling.
But the nurse was so dull about it that he gave her up and tried
his father. “Of course,” replied this busy but affectionate parent,
“it’s either nobody at all, or else it’s Sleep coming to carry you
away to the land of dreams.” He made the statement kindly but somewhat
briskly, for he was worried just then about the extra taxes on his land,
and the effort to fix his mind on Tim’s fanciful world was beyond him
at the moment. He lifted the boy on to his knee, kissed and patted him
as though he were a favourite dog, and planted him on the rug again with
a flying sweep. “Run and ask your mother,” he added; “she knows
all that kind of thing. Then come back and tell me all about
it—another time.”
Tim found his mother in an arm-chair before the fire of another
room; she was knitting and reading at the same time—a wonderful thing
the boy could never understand. She raised her head as he came in,
pushed her glasses on to her forehead, and held her arms out. He told
her everything, ending up with what his father said.
“You see, it’s not Jackman, or Thompson, or any one like that,” he exclaimed.
“It’s some one real.”
“But nice,” she assured him, “some one who comes to take
care of you and see that you’re all safe and cosy.”
“Oh, yes, I know that. But—”
“I think your father’s right,” she added quickly. “It’s
Sleep, I’m sure, who pops in round the door like that. Sleep has
got wings, I’ve always heard.”
“Then the other thing—the little ones?” he asked. “Are
they just sorts of dozes, you think?”
Mother did not answer for a moment. She turned down the page of
her book, closed it slowly, put it on the table beside her. More slowly
still she put her knitting away, arranging the wool and needles with
some deliberation.
“Perhaps,” she said, drawing the boy closer to her and
looking into his big eyes of wonder, “they’re dreams!”
Tim felt a thrill run through him as she said it. He stepped back
a foot or so and clapped his hands softly. “Dreams!” he whispered
with enthusiasm and belief; “of course! I never thought of that.”
His mother, having proved her sagacity, then made a mistake. She
noted her success, but instead of leaving it there, she elaborated and
explained. As Tim expressed it she “went on about it.” Therefore he
did not listen. He followed his train of thought alone. And presently,
he interrupted her long sentences with a conclusion of his own:
“Then I know where She hides,” he announced with a touch of
awe. “Where She lives, I mean.” And without waiting to be asked,
he imparted the information: ‘‘It’s in the Other Wing.”
“Ah!” said his mother, taken by surprise. “How clever of
you, Tim!”—and thus confirmed it.
Thenceforward this was established in his life—that Sleep and
her attendant Dreams hid during the daytime in that unused portion of
the great Elizabethan mansion called the Other Wing. This other wing was
unoccupied, its corridors untrodden, its windows shuttered and its rooms
all closed. At various places green baize doors led into it, but no one
ever opened them. For many years this part had been shut up; and for the
children, properly speaking, it was out of bounds. They never mentioned
it as a possible place, at any rate; in hide-and-seek it was not
considered, even; there was a hint of the inaccessible about the Other
Wing. Shadows, dust, and silence had it to themselves.
But Tim, having ideas of his own about everything, possessed
special information about the Other Wing. He believed it was
inhabited. Who occupied the immense series of empty rooms, who trod
the spacious corridors, who passed to and fro behind the shuttered
windows, he had not known exactly. He had called these occupants
“they,” and the most important among them was “The Ruler.” The
Ruler of the Other Wing was a kind of deity, powerful, far away, ever
present yet never seen.
And about this Ruler he had a wonderful conception for a little
boy; he connected her, somehow, with deep thoughts of his own, the
deepest of all. When he made up adventures to the moon, to the stars, or
to the bottom of the sea, adventures that he lived inside himself as
it were—to reach them he must invariably pass through the chambers of
the Other Wing. Those corridors and halls, the Nightmare Passage among
them, lay along the route; they were the first stage of the journey.
Once the green baize doors swung to behind him and the long dim passage
stretched ahead, he was well on his way into the adventure of the
moment; the Nightmare Passage once passed, he was safe from capture; but
once the shutters of a window had been flung open, he was free of the
gigantic world that lay beyond. For then light poured in and he could
see his way.
The conception, for a child, was curious. It established a
correspondence between the mysterious chambers of the Other Wing and the
occupied, but unguessed chambers of his Inner Being. Through these
chambers, through these darkened corridors, along a passage, sometimes
dangerous, or at least of questionable repute, he must pass to find all
adventures that were real. The
light—when he pierced far enough to take the shutters down—was
discovery. Tim did not actually think, much less say, all this. He was
aware of it, however. He felt it. The Other Wing was inside himself as
well as through the green baize doors. His inner ma of wonder included
both of them.
But now, for the first time in his life, he knew who lived there
and who the Ruler was. A shutter had fallen of its own accord; light
poured in; he made a guess, and Mother had confirmed it. Sleep and her
Little Ones, the host of dreams, were the daylight occupants. They
stole out when the darkness fell. All adventures in life began and
ended by a dream—discoverable by first passing through the Other
Wing.
And, having settled this, his one desire now was to travel over
the map upon journeys of exploration and discovery. The map inside
himself he knew already, but the map of the Other Wing he had not seen.
His mind knew it, he had a clear mental picture of rooms and halls and
passages, but his feet had never trod the silent floors where dust and
shadows hid the flock of dreams by day. The mighty chambers where Sleep
ruled he longed to stand in, to see the Ruler face to face. He made up
his mind to get into the Other Wing.
To accomplish this was difficult; but Tim was a determined
youngster, and he meant to try; he meant, also, to succeed. He
deliberated. At night he could not possibly manage it; in any case,
the Ruler and her host all left it after dark, to fly about the world;
the Wing would be empty, and the emptiness would frighten him. Therefore
he must make a daylight visit; and it was a daylight visit he decided
on. He deliberated more. There were rules and risks involved: it meant
going out of bounds, the danger of being seen, the certainty of being
questioned by some idle and inquisitive grown-up: “Where in the
world have you been all this time” —and so forth. These things he
thought out carefully, and though he arrived at no solution, he felt
satisfied that it would be all right. That is, he recognised the risks.
To be prepared was half the battle, for nothing then could take him by
surprise.
The notion that he might slip in from the garden was soon
abandoned; the red bricks showed no openings; there was no door; from
the courtyard, also, entrance was impracticable; even on tiptoe he could
barely reach the broad window-sills of stone. When playing alone, or
walking with the French governess, he examined every outside
possibility. None offered. The shutters, supposing he could reach
them, were thick and solid.
Meanwhile, when opportunity offered, he stood against the outside
walls and listened, his ear pressed against the tight red bricks; the
towers and gables of the Wing rose overhead; he heard the wind go
whispering along the eaves; he imagined tiptoe movements and a sound of
wings inside. Sleep and her Little Ones were busily preparing for their
journeys after dark; they hid, but they did not sleep; in this unused
Wing, vaster alone than any other country house he had ever seen, Sleep
taught and trained her flock of feathered Dreams. It was very wonderful.
They probably supplied the entire county. But more wonderful still was
the thought that the Ruler herself should take the trouble to come to
his particular room and personally watch over him all night long. That
was amazing. And it flashed across his imaginative, inquiring mind:
“Perhaps they take me with them! The moment I’m asleep! That’s why
she comes to see me!”
Yet his chief preoccupation was, how Sleep got out. Through the
green baize doors, of course! By a process of elimination he arrived at
a conclusion: he, too, must enter through a green baize door and risk
detection.
Of late, the lightning visits had ceased. The silent, darting
figure had not peeped in and vanished as it used to do. He fell asleep
too quickly now, almost before Jackman reached the hall, and long before
the fire began to die. Also, the dogs and birds upon the curtains always
matched the trees exactly, and he won the curtain game quite easily;
there was never a dog or bird too many the curtain never stirred. It had
been thus ever since his talk with Mother and Father. And so he came to
make a second discovery: His parents did not really believe in his
Figure. She kept away on that account. They doubted her; she hid. Here
was still another incentive to go and find her out. He ached for her,
she was so kind, she gave herself so much trouble—just for his
little self in the big and lonely bedroom. Yet his parents spoke of
her as though she were of no account. He longed to see her, face to
face, and tell her that he believed
in her and loved her. For he was positive she would like to hear it. She
cared. Though he had fallen asleep of late too quickly for him to see
her flash in at the door, he had known nicer dreams than ever in his
life before-travelling dreams. And it was she who sent them. More—he
was sure she took him out with her.
One evening, in the dusk of a March day, his opportunity came;
and only just in time, for his brother Jack was expected home from
school on the morrow, and with Jack in the other bed, no Figure would
ever care to show itself. Also it was Easter, and after Easter, though
Tim was not aware of it at the time, he was to say good-bye finally to
governesses and become a day-boarder at a preparatory school for
Wellington. The opportunity offered itself so naturally, moreover, that
Tim took it without hesitation. It never occurred to him to question,
much less to refuse it. The thing was obviously meant to be. For he
found himself unexpectedly in front of a green baize door; and the green
baize door was-—swinging! Somebody, therefore, had just passed through
it.
It had come about in this wise. Father, away in Scotland, at
Inglemuir, the shooting place, was expected back next morning; Mother
had driven over to the church upon some Easter business or other; and
the governess had been allowed her holiday at home in France. Tim,
therefore, had the run of the house, and in the hour between tea and
bed-time he made good use of it. Fully able to defy such second-rate
obstacles as nurses and butlers, he explored all manner of forbidden
places with ardent thoroughness, arriving finally in the sacred precincts
of his father’s study. This wonderful room was the very heart and
centre of the whole big house; he had been birched here long ago; here,
too, his father had told him with a grave yet smiling face: “You’ve
got a new companion, Tim, a little sister; you must be very kind to
her.” Also, it was the place where all the money was kept. What he
called “father’s jolly smell” was strong in it—papers,
tobacco, books, flavoured by hunting crops and gunpowder.
At first he felt awed, standing motionless just inside the door;
but presently, recovering equilibrium, he moved cautiously on tiptoe
towards the gigantic desk where important papers were piled in untidy
patches. These he did not touch; but beside them his quick eye noted the
jagged piece of iron shell his father brought home from his Crimean
campaign and now used as a letter-weight. It was difficult to lift,
however. He climbed into the comfortable chair and swung round and
round. It was a swivel-chair, and he sank down among the cushions in it,
staring at the strange things on the great desk before him, as if
fascinated. Next he turned away and saw the stick-rack in the
corner—this, he knew, he was allowed to touch. He had played with
these sticks before. There were twenty, perhaps, all told, with curious
carved handles, brought from every corner of the world; many of them cut
by his father’s own hand in queer and distant places. And, among them,
Tim fixed his eye upon a cane with an ivory handle, a slender, polished
cane that he had always coveted tremendously. It was the kind he meant
to use when he was a man. It bent, it quivered, and when he swished it
through the air it trembled like a riding-whip, and made a whistling
noise. Yet it was very strong in spite of its elastic qualities. A
family treasure, it was also an old-fashioned relic; it had been his
grandfather’s walking stick. Something of another century clung
visibly about it still. It had dignity and grace and leisure in its very
aspect. And it suddenly occurred to him: “How grandpapa must miss it!
Wouldn’t he just love to have it back again!”
How it happened exactly, Tim did not know, but a few minutes
later he found himself walking about the deserted halls and passages of
the house with the air of an elderly gentleman of a hundred years ago,
proud as a courtier, flourishing the stick like an Eighteenth Century
dandy in the Mall. That the cane reached to his shoulder made no
difference; he held it accordingly, swaggering on his way. He was off
upon an adventure. He dived down through the byways of the Other Wing,
inside himself, as though the stick transported him to the days of the
old gentleman who had used it in another century.
It may seem strange to those who dwell in smaller houses, but in
this rambling Elizabethan mansion there were whole sections that, even
to Tim, were strange and unfamiliar. In his mind the map of the Other
Wing was clearer by far than the geography of the part he travelled
daily. He came to passages and dim-lit halls, long corridors of stone
beyond the Picture Gallery; narrow, wainscoted connecting-channels
with four steps down and a little later two steps up; deserted chambers
with arches guarding them—all hung with the soft March twilight and
all bewilderingly unrecognised. With a sense of adventure born of
naughtiness he went carelessly along, farther and farther into the
heart of this unfamiliar country, swinging the cane, one thumb stuck
into the arm-pit of his blue serge suit, whistling softly to himself
excited yet keenly on the alert—and suddenly found himself opposite a
door that checked all further advance. It was a green baize door. And it
was swinging.
He stopped abruptly, facing it. He stared, he gripped his cane
more tightly, he held his breath. “The Other Wing!” he gasped in a
swallowed whisper. It was an entrance, but an entrance he had never seen
before. He thought he knew every door by heart; but this one was new. He
stood motionless for several minutes, watching it; the door had two
halves, but one half only was swinging, each swing shorter than the
one before; he heard the little puffs of air it made; it settled
finally, the last movements very short and rapid; it stopped. And the
boy’s heart, after similar rapid strokes, stopped also—for a
moment.
“Some one’s just gone through,” he gulped. And even as he
said it he knew who the some one was. The conviction just dropped into
him. “It’s Grandfather; he knows I’ve got his stick. He wants
it!” On the heels of this flashed instantly another amazing certainty.
“He sleeps in there. He’s having dreams. That’s what being dead
means.”
His first impulse, then, took the form of, “I must let Father
know; it’ll make him burst for joy”; but his second was for
himself—to finish his adventure. And it was this, naturally enough,
that gained the day. He could tell his father later. His first duty was
plainly to go through the door into the Other Wing. He must give the
stick back to its owner. He must hand
it back.
The test of will and character came now. Tim had imagination, and
so knew the meaning of fear; but there was nothing craven in him. He
could howl and scream and stamp like any other person of his age when
the occasion called for such behaviour, but such occasions were due to
temper roused by a thwarted will, and the histrionics were half
“pretended” to produce a calculated effect. There was no one to
thwart his will at present. He also knew how to be afraid of Nothing, to
be afraid without ostensible cause, that is—which was merely
“nerves.” He could have “the shudders” with the best of them.
But, when a real thing faced him, Tim’s character emerged to
meet it. He would clench his hands, brace his muscles, set his teeth—and
wish to heaven he was bigger. But he would not flinch. Being
imaginative, he lived the worst a dozen times before it happened, yet in
the final crash he stood up like a man. He had that highest pluck—the
courage of a sensitive temperament. And at this particular juncture,
somewhat ticklish for a boy of eight or nine, it did not fail him. He
lifted the cane and pushed the swinging door wide open. Then he walked
through it—into the Other Wing.
The green baize door swung to behind him; he was even
sufficiently master of himself to turn and close it with a steady hand,
because he did not care to hear the series of muffled thuds its
lessening swings would cause. But he realised clearly his position, knew
he was doing a tremendous thing.
Holding the cane between fingers very tightly clenched, he
advanced bravely along the corridor that stretched before him. And all
fear left him from that moment, replaced, it seemed, by a mild and
exquisite surprise. His footsteps made no sound, he walked on air;
instead of darkness, or the twilight he expected, a diffused and gentle
light that seemed like the silver on the lawn when a half-moon sails a
cloudless sky, lay everywhere. He knew his way, moreover, knew exactly
where he was and whither he was going. The corridor was as familiar to
him as the floor of his own bedroom; he recognised the shape and length
of it; it agreed exactly with the map he had constructed long ago.
Though he had never, to the best of his knowledge, entered it before, he
knew with intimacy its every detail.
And thus the surprise he felt was mild and far from
disconcerting. “I’m here again!” was the kind of thought he had.
It was how he got here that
caused the faint surprise, apparently. He no longer swaggered, however,
but walked carefully, and half on tiptoe, holding the ivory handle of
the cane with a kind of affectionate respect. And as he advanced, the
light closed softly up behind him, obliterating the way by which he had
come. But this he did not know, because he did not look behind him. He
only looked in front, where the corridor stretched its silvery length
towards the great chamber where he knew the cane must be surrendered.
The person who had preceded him down this ancient corridor, passing
through the green baize door just before he reached it, this person, his
father’s father, now stood in that great chamber, waiting to receive
his own. Tim knew it as surely as he knew he breathed. At the far end he
even made out the larger patch of silvery light which marked its gaping
doorway.
There was another thing he knew as well-—that this corridor he
moved along between rooms with fast-closed doors, was the Nightmare
Corridor; often and often he had traversed it; each room was occupied.
“This is the Nightmare Passage,” he whispered to himself, “but I
know the Ruler—it doesn’t matter. None of them can get out or do
anything.” He heard them, none the less, inside, as he passed by; he
heard them scratching to get out. The feeling of security made him
reckless; he took unnecessary risks; he brushed the panels as he passed.
And the love of keen sensation for its own sake, the desire to feel
“an awful thrill,” tempted him once so sharply that he raised his
stick and poked a fast-shut door with it!
He was not prepared for the result, but he gained the sensation
and the thrill. For the door opened with instant swiftness half an
inch, a hand emerged, caught the stick and tried to draw it in. Tim
sprang back as if he had been struck. He pulled at the ivory handle with
all his strength, but his strength was less than nothing. He tried to
shout, but his voice had gone. A terror of the moon came over him, for
he was unable to loosen his hold of the handle; his fingers had become a
part of it. An appalling weakness turned him helpless. He was dragged
inch by inch towards the fearful door. The end of the stick was already
through the narrow crack. He could not see the hand that pulled, but he
knew it was terrific. He understood now why the world was strange, why
horses galloped furiously, and why trains whistled as they raced through
stations. All the comedy and terror of nightmare gripped his heart with
pincers made of ice. The disproportion was abominable. The final
collapse rushed over him when, without a sign of warning, the door
slammed silently, and between the jamb and the wall the cane was crushed
as flat as if it were a bulrush. So irresistible was the force behind
the door that the solid stick just went flat as a stalk of a bulrush.
He looked at it. It was a bulrush.
He did not laugh; the absurdity was so distressingly unnatural.
The horror of finding a bulrush where he had expected a polished
cane—this hideous and appalling detail held the nameless horror of the
nightmare. It betrayed him utterly. Why had he not always known really
that the stick was not a stick, but a thin and hollow reed...?
Then the cane was safely in his hand, unbroken. He stood looking
at it. The Nightmare was in full swing. He heard another door opening
behind his back, a door he had not touched. There was just time to see a
hand thrusting and waving dreadfully, familiarly, at him through the
narrow crack—just time to realise that this was another Nightmare
acting in atrocious concert with the first, when he saw closely beside
him, towering to the ceiling, the protective, kindly Figure that visited
his bedroom. ln the turning movement he made to meet the attack, he
became aware of her. And his terror passed. It was a nightmare terror
merely. The infinite horror vanished. Only the comedy remained. He
smiled.
He saw her dimly only, she was so vast, but he saw her, the Ruler
of the Other Wing at last, and knew that he was safe again. He gazed
with a tremendous love and wonder, trying to see her clearly; but the
face was hidden far aloft and seemed to melt into the sky beyond the
roof. He discerned that she was larger than the Night, only far, far
softer, with wings that folded above him more tenderly even than his
mother’s arms; that there were points of light like stars among the
feathers, and that she was vast enough to cover millions and millions of
people all at once. Moreover, she did not fade or go, so far as he could
see, but spread herself in such a way that he lost sight of her. She
spread over the entire Wing . . . .
And Tim remembered that this was all quite natural really. He had
often and often been down this corridor before; the Nightmare Corridor
was no new experience; it had to be faced as usual. Once knowing what
hid inside the rooms, he was bound to tempt them out. They drew,
enticed, attracted him; this was their power. It was their special
strength that they could suck him helplessly towards them, and that he
was obliged to go.
He understood exactly why he was tempted to tap with the cane
upon their awful doors, but, having done so, he had accepted the
challenge and could now continue his journey quietly and safely. The
Ruler of the Other Wing had taken him in charge.
A delicious sense of carelessness came on him. There was softness
as of water in the solid things about him, nothing that could hurt or
bruise. Holding the cane firmly by its ivory handle, he went forward
along the corridor, walking as on air.
The end was quickly reached: he stood upon the threshold of the
mighty chamber where he knew the owner of the cane was waiting; the long
corridor lay behind him, in front he saw the spacious dimensions of a
lofty hall that gave him the feeling of being in the Crystal Palace,
Euston Station, or St. Paul’s. High, narrow windows, cut deeply into
the wall, stood in a row upon the other side; an enormous open fireplace
of burning logs was on his right; thick tapestries hung from the
ceiling to the floor of stone; and in the centre of the chamber was a
massive table of dark, shining wood, great chairs with carved stiff
backs set here and there beside it. And in the biggest of these
throne-like chairs there sat a figure looking at him gravely——the
figure of an old, old man.
Yet there was no surprise in the boy’s fast-beating heart;
there was a thrill of pleasure and excitement only, a feeling of
satisfaction. He had known quite well the figure would be there, known
also it would look like this exactly. He stepped forward on to the floor
of stone without a trace of fear or trembling, holding the precious cane
in two hands now before him, as though to present it to its owner. He
felt proud and pleased. He had run risks for this.
And the figure rose quietly to meet him, advancing in a stately
manner over the hard stone floor. The eyes looked gravely, sweetly down
at him, the aquiline nose stood out. Tim knew him perfectly: the
knee-breeches of shining satin, the gleaming buckles on the shoes, the
neat dark stockings, the lace and ruffles about neck and wrists, the
coloured waistcoat opening so widely—all the details of the picture
over father’s mantelpiece, where it hung between two Crimean bayonets,
were reproduced in life before his eyes at last. Only the polished cane
with the ivory handle was not there.
Tim went three steps nearer to the advancing figure and held out
both his hands with the cane laid crosswise on them.
“I’ve brought it, Grandfather,” he said, in a faint but
clear and steady tone; “here it is.”
And the other stooped a little, put out three fingers half
concealed by falling lace, and took it by the ivory handle. He made a
courtly bow to Tim. He smiled, hut though there was pleasure, it was a
grave, sad smile. He spoke then: the voice was slow and very deep. There
was a delicate softness in it, the suave politeness of an older day.
“Thank you,” he said; “I value it. It was given to me by my
grandfather. I forgot it when I—” His voice grew indistinct a
little.
“Yes?” said Tim.
“When I—left,” the old gentleman repeated.
“Oh,” said Tim, thinking how beautiful and kind the gracious
figure was.
The old man ran his slender fingers carefully along the cane,
feeling the polished surface with satisfaction. He lingered specially
over the smoothness of the ivory handle. He was evidently very pleased.
“I was not quite myself—er—at the moment,” he went on
gently; “my memory failed me somewhat.” He sighed, as though an
immense relief was in him.
“I forget things,
too—sometimes,” Tim mentioned sympathetically. He simply loved his
grandfather. He hoped—for a moment—he would he lifted up and
kissed. “I’m awfully glad
I brought it,” he faltered—“that you’ve got it again.”
The other turned his kind grey eyes upon him; the smile on his
face was full of gratitude as he looked down.
“Thank you, my boy. I am truly and deeply indebted to you. You
courted danger for my sake. Others have tried before, but the Nightmare
Passage—er—” He broke off.
He tapped the stick firmly on the stone flooring, as though to
test it. Bending a trifle, he put his weight upon it. “Ah!” he
exclaimed with a short sigh of relief, “I can now—”
His voice again grew indistinct; Tim did not catch the words.
“Yes?” he asked again, aware for the first time that a touch
of awe was in his heart.
“—get about again,” the other continued very low.
“Without my cane,” he added, the voice failing with each word the
old lips uttered, “I could not . . . possibly . . . allow myself . . .
to be seen. It was indeed . . . deplorable . . . unpardonable of me .
. . to forget in such a way. Zounds, sir. . .! I—I . . .”
His voice sank away suddenly into a sound of wind. He
straightened up, tapping the iron ferrule of his cane on the stones in a
series of loud knocks. Tim felt a strange sensation creep into his legs.
The queer words frightened him a little.
The old man took a step towards him. He still smiled, but there
was a new meaning in the smile. A sudden earnestness had replaced the
courtly, leisurely manner. The next words seemed to blow down upon the
boy from above, as though a cold wind brought them from the sky outside.
Yet the words, he knew, were kindly meant, and very sensible. It
was only the abrupt change that startled him. Grandfather, after all,
was but a man! The distant sound recalled something in him to that
outside world from which the cold wind blew.
“My eternal thanks to you,” he heard, while the voice and
face and figure seemed to withdrew deeper and deeper into the heart of
the mighty chamber. “I shall not forget your kindness and your
courage. It is a debt I can, fortunately, one day repay . . . . But now
you had best return and with dispatch. For your head and arm lie heavily
on the table, the documents are scattered, there is a cushion fallen . .
. and my son is in the house . . . Farewell! You had best leave me
quickly. See! She stands
behind you, waiting. Go with her! Go now. . .!”
The entire scene had vanished even before the final words were
uttered. Tim felt empty space about him. A vast, shadowy Figure bore him
through it as with mighty wings. He flew, he rushed, he remembered nothing
more—until he heard another voice and felt a heavy hand upon his
shoulder.
“Tim, you rascal! What are you doing in my study? And in the
dark, like this!”
He looked up into his father’s face without a word. He felt
dazed. The next minute his father had caught him up and kissed him.
“Ragamuffin! How did you guess I was coming back to-night?”
He shook him playfully and kissed his tumbling hair. “And you’ve
been asleep, too, into the bargain. Well—how’s everything at
home—eh? Jack’s coming back from school to-morrow, you know, and . .
.”
Jack came home, indeed, the following day, and when the Easter
holidays were over, the governess stayed abroad and Tim went off to
adventures of another kind in the preparatory school for Wellington.
Life slipped rapidly along with him; he grew into a man; his mother and
his father died; Jack followed them within a little space; Tim
inherited, married, settled down into his great possessions—and opened
up the Other Wing. The dreams of imaginative boyhood all had faded;
perhaps he had merely put them away, or perhaps he had forgotten them.
At any rate, he never spoke of such things now, and when his Irish wife
mentioned her belief that the old country house possessed a family
ghost, even declaring that she had met an Eighteenth Century figure of
a man in the corridors, “an old, old man who bends down upon a
stick” —Tim only laughed and said: “That’s as it ought to be!
And if these awful land-taxes force us to sell some day, a respectable
ghost will increase the market value.”
But one night he woke and heard a tapping on the floor. He sat up
in bed and listened. There was a chilly feeling down his back. Belief
had long since gone out of him; he felt uncannily afraid. The sound came
nearer and nearer; there were light footsteps with it. The door
opened—it opened a little wider, that is, for it already stood
ajar—and there upon the threshold stood a figure that it seemed he
knew. He saw the face as with all the vivid sharpness of reality. There
was a smile upon it, but a smile of warning and alarm. The arm was
raised. Tim saw the slender hand, lace falling down upon the long, thin
fingers, and in them, tightly gripped, a polished cane. Shaking the cane
twice to and fro in the air, the face thrust forward, spoke certain
words, and—vanished. But the words were inaudible; for, though the
lips distinctly moved, no sound, apparently, came from them.
And Tim sprang out of bed. The room was full of darkness. He
turned the light on. The door, he saw, was shut as usual. He had, of
course, been dreaming. But he noticed a curious odour in the air. He
sniffed it once or twice—then grasped the truth. It was a smell of
burning!
Fortunately, he awoke just in time. . . .
He was acclaimed a hero for his promptitude. After many days,
when the damage was repaired, and nerves had settled down once more into
the calm routine of country life, he told the story to his wife—the
entire story. He told the adventure of his imaginative boyhood with it.
She asked to see the old family cane. And it was this request of hers
that brought back to memory a detail Tim had entirely forgotten all
these years. He remembered it suddenly again—the loss of the cane, the
hubbub his father kicked up about it, the endless, futile search. For
the stick had never been found, and Tim, who was questioned very closely
concerning it, swore with all his might that he had not the smallest
notion where it was. Which was, of course, the truth.